This is the third year that I have thrown all New Year’s Resolutions out the window and replaced it with a “one word” focus. Some people choose a word to help set goals for the year. Sometimes the word chooses you. My words have always chosen me. I feel they reflected what the LORD was actively doing in my heart or wanted to teach me.
The first year was 2013. My word was “transition”. I was learning about how to honor the season I find myself in. I was transitioning from a mom of babies to a mom of preschool/school aged kids. I also transitioned from managing a blog with seven writers to writing my own blog for myself.
Now as we begin 2015, once again a word has chosen me. The word is “yield”.
I really don’t like that word! For one, it is not a beautiful word. There are much more beautiful words to chose from. Even some of the synonyms seem to conjure more pleasant connotations. But that is just it…I have to yield to control…to perfection…to beauty…to order. Also, to yield is a counter-cultural concept. We are taught that we are to look out for ourselves and to be the master of our own destinies…that our success is determined by the dreams we plan and how well we execute those plans…that we are not to yield to anything that may get in the way of those plans.
The LORD is asking me to surrender..to relinquish my plans…to abandon my own sense of security.
Most importantly to yield to His authority…
For someone who is so strong-willed, this is my greatest struggle.
I spent the entire year last year confirming my call to ministry. I know beyond the shadow of doubt that I am called to minister to women. I was able to do that through this blog, the podcast, and leading a weekly Bible Study. Then out of the blue God made it VERY clear that I needed to take an opportunity that He presented and return to my profession. After being a stay-at-home-mom for 6 and 1/2 years, I was thrust back into a classroom mid-year. No one with kingdom eyes ever doubt that public school teachers are ministers despite their inability to share their faith. And guess what? My job is to teach the MOTHERS of elementary school students! God is so strategic to use individual giftings and passions for His glory!
Even though this is a perfect position for me and my skill set, it is not what I had envisioned! I am learning to yield.
In this yielding season, I am having to yield to others as well. I am having to let go of the Bible Study and allow someone else to step-up in leadership. I am having to let go of the podcast. I am having to let go of my vision for this blog, and let it be what I can give to it…to trust that God will bless it and use it as He choses.
One sneaking suspicion to why “yield” is my word is because the Father wants to teach me multiple meanings that the synonyms like surrender and relinquish don’t carry.
Sometimes “yield” means to pause…to slow down. My tendency is to move full steam ahead with MY ideas, MY decisions, venting My frustrations, with My careless words…I need to pause…to slow down and consider the ramifications of MY actions before I move forward.
And then there is another meaning to the word yield. It is an agricultural term. The yield of a crop is the fruit that is produced. It is also a banking term that means to produce as return from an investment
Isn’t that just like God to be so poetic? Did you miss the irony?
I am suppose to YIELD to His authority so that I can YEILD the most fruit for His kingdom and so that I will see the YIELD of my investment…all for His glory!
“Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.” John 15: 4-5
“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.” Mathew 16:24-27
I have much to learn this year!
What about you? Do you have a “one word”?